Wedding Inspiration

Weddings are all around me and I cannot hide anymore. There have been weedings from time to time, some more or less distant friends, relatives or acquitances. Now it is different - close friends or colleagues are ready to tight the knot and I am becoming part of it. Even if I am not invited, you cannot miss these occasions on Facebook. I admit it is nice to scroll though the pictures and to check who did the hairdo, make-up or the accessories. Hundreds of styles, thousands of tastes. So many questions in my head...some of them do not have answers.

Do I want this for myself? (Really?) Am I able to organise a wedding that would be perfect in my eyes and entertaining for all guests? (Hard to say) Do I want to spend half a day at the stylist for a 10-minute speech at the Town Hall (if not elsewhere)? (No! I need a long speech and all the tingly-wingly thingies have to take its time too) Is it worth all the money? (It will cost fortune) Is my marriage going to last? (Divorce rate in the Czech Republic in 2012 is 45% and this is actually a decrease to 2011. And I am a bitch!) Does it guarantee hapiness? (Noooo, definitely not) Will I be satisfied with the dinner party? (It is so hard to find a reasonable restaurant!) Will I be proposed? (I seriously doubt that because when I met my boyfriend (and hopefully husband-to-be) I made it clear that I do not want to get married) Will I bear the wedding ring on my ring finger? (Very unlikely, I wear rings only on middle fingers or index fingers)

When I get down from the sky, I pay a thought to my vanity - money can be easily spent elsewhere, doesn't it? And yes - I changed my mind. I do want to be proposed! But I do not want to get married. Just maybe if I come up with some awesome programme for dinner party and the ceremony, if I win lottery to pay for the wedding, if I  find some great restaurant for dinner party, if he proposes, if I train my ring finger for a wedding ring, if...

All this confirms my theory, that wedding is not a matter of decision but a matter of development. A proper mature development of two loving creatures. Then he does not love me enough to make a step ahead and I am just a littler girl that needs to grow up and live through to her big wedding day!  

So lazy ...

It has been ages since when I posted my last addition to Blogspot. I am so lame! 1 post in February 2013 - really??? Shame on me. The truth is that a lot is happening and I do not know exactly how to deal with it. It is swirling in my head but I am not sure if it is publishable - the issues are coming in spiral and are related to last year's sad story of my Granny having fallen into coma.

Enough nagging - I am going to be more active! I just made a decision! Just have to find some tempting topics ...

Story of a 3rd Grandmother

New year of 2013 started quite smoothly, no hilarious celebrations. Au contraire, sad mood keeps draging on and there are no positive lights at the end of the tunnel.

The first serious hit arrived at my mail box on Wednesday mid-February - white envelope with familiar handwriting. I feared the worst and I was right. My 3rd Grandmother died on Friday February 8th 2013. Nothing more, nothing less. I knew I wouldn't make it for the Friday's funeral and had no information whatsoever. And I do not have it up to now. Silly of me to think that the guys (my ex or his sister) would contact me per my request enclosed to the condolence. They can  hardly knew that I cared so much for her. 

On Christmas 2012 we did not go to see her as we wanted to go the cemetry to lay the flowers to my Grandfather's grave instead. I missed my last chance to see her and will always remember the prick at my heart when she disappointingly repeated the message that I was not coming with my parents to see her on December 26th. I planned to pay her a visit some time in 2013. Apparently someone has changed his mind ... Rest In Peace, Babičko S.