No More Visualization

And the time has come ... 

Our suffering is over - it took almost 22 months and it changed so many things one can hardly believe. Grandmother's leaving was sudden, yet expected and welcomed and I also have a story to add. 

Grandparents' flat has been empty for some time now, for a reason. I decided that I will somehow utilitize the furniture, at least some of it. It is old, clean but with flair! I don't have the heart of stone to throw it away! The first piece I aquired was an old lamp of 60s in so-called Brussel style.  Nice, not damaged but 3 original colorful shades were long time ago replaced by ugly glass shades, which apparently didn't go together with slender body of the lamp. And I wanted it original! I searched whole country (virtually speaking) to find original shades - but to no avail:-( After months of reasoning, searching and contemplating I found a man in Prague who searches for soul in old things - a restorator. Tens of e-mails, in couple of months and the deal was set. He manufactured brand new shades in colour I chose. 

He did a great job - I was so excited when the shields arrived. I installed them immediatelly and the feeling of having an old piece in new attire was so overwhelming that I decided to go to hospital next day and tell Grandma about her lamp having started a new career in my living room. I knew it would have made her happy. The emotion was so intense that I literally saw myself in her hospital room, being bent over her and telling her about the lamp and its new shades. I even looked forward to it - positive emotion of this kind is definitely profitable to everyone, even if you are in coma. This visualization brought such a spirit to me! 

The next day in the  morning my Mum calls ...as usual: When I see her calling me, I always get the feeling that "it" is over. Following thought was: But I didn't tell Grandma about the lamp! Hunch? Maybe. But I was definitely right - she passed away at night of 22nd/23rd April, leaving me with unspoken words of a new soul in an old lamp - in HER old lamp.

All this confirms my theory of visualization - whenever I see clearly anything is happening, it will NEVER happen. My brain goes against stereotypes - people have visions that come tru. My visions do not come true. True story!
P.S. Picture is to come...